It began in earnest the moment I woke up. The tumbling feeling in my stomach that felt more like rocks in a dryer instead of butterflies.
Anxiety welled up within my mind and heart–something had to be wrong. The night before, I’d laid in bed, wondering why my pregnancy this time around felt so different. No nausea, no indigestion, and most surprisingly, no overwhelming exhaustion.
I wasn’t an anxious person by nature (though I did have times of worry and seasonal depression), but knowing that I could be facing a miscarriage right at the edge of the “safe zone”, 13 weeks, heightened my sense of fear. There were moments in this waiting time that I literally had to take a deep breath, close my eyes and pray that God would slow down my hammering heart and turning stomach.
We headed to the doctor and I was filled with dread. The doctor looked serious, and my heart pounded, but what she said surprised me. Everything was alright. Baby was fine. My body was just treating this pregnancy different for some reason. And the physical signs of miscarriage I saw? Easily explainable.
Obviously, this news was a huge relief. My husband and I felt ourselves physically relax and we gave much thanks to God. Yet, after I had some time to reflect on the situation, I deeply sensed the need for calming my anxious heart going forward.
I couldn’t just continue to rely on my grit and strength, whether it was during the pregnancy (the nausea came on full force shortly after my doctor’s appointment, strangely enough!) or whether it was another difficult situation we might face in the future. Because life isn’t always going to be full of good news.
Have you been in this place in your life? Struggling with anxiety, your stomach in knots over a fear or worry that is out of your control?
How do we find the peace and calm that our anxious heart desperately needs? Distracting ourselves from the thing that’s hurting isn’t a long-term solution. And neither is assuming that we aren’t able to be healed and simply must try to survive from one emotional turmoil to the next.
There is peace to be found in taking our thoughts captive to Christ. I love what St. Augustine wrote:
“Our hearts are restless until they rest in you.”
The Spiritual Discipline That Makes the Difference
And this very simple but powerful thing, the spiritual practice (or discipline) of writing out God’s Word, will bring us to a place of rest and peace. It isn’t a quick fix, but it’s a process of letting the Holy Spirit root out the worries and fears that threaten our joy.
When we spend less time letting our own thoughts take over, put pen to paper and just write through the Word, little by little our hearts and minds are transformed and the peace that Philippians 4:7 talks about works its way into our lives.
It doesn’t mean we won’t ever struggle again, we live in a fallen world, after all, but simply that we recognize that there is power in the Word through the Holy Spirit to complete the good work that has been started in us.
When You Start to See Things Change
Oftentimes, we don’t even realize how much change has taken place until we are faced with yet another trouble, and see that in that trial we are repeating words of Scripture and whispering heartfelt prayers, rather than being pulled down under again.
In this world you will have trouble, but take heart, I have overcome the world. John 16:33
There is such a release and reassurance in this simple practice! Friends, I want you to experience this!
I’m not perfect at all, and many days I have to go to the cross again and rely solely on God to lift me up, and start calling to mind Bible verses that have been imprinted on my memory through the practice of writing Scripture.
Won’t you join me in Writing through the Word of God?
To help you get into God’s word, even on the busiest days, I’ve created Write Through the Word.
Write Through the Word is a simple Scripture study and journaling method designed to help you hide God’s Word in your heart in a way that sticks, even if you don’t have a lot of time for a Bible study each day.
It is available as a digital, downloadable, printable product here in our shop!
Write Through the Word for 2018 includes:
- A Scripture calendar for each month of the year. Each month is a journey through a Biblical theme and gives you one to three verses to write down each day. This year’s themes are Wisdom and Fruits of the Spirit.
- A printable journaling page with space to write down the verses of the day, thoughts on the verse that are guided by three simple questions to help you dig deeper, and a spot to write down a personal prayer. You can also use the journaling page as a guide and grab your own notebook for daily writing.
- Beautiful Bible verse prints and Scripture cards so that you can have God’s Word in front of you throughout the day.
- A printable prayer list for writing down requests and answered prayers
- Two encouraging videos teaching you how to develop a consistent devotional time and how to make the most of Write Through the Word.
- Access to a 21 Day Write Through the Word Challenge in our private Facebook group, beginning January 8, 2018.
For a very limited time, you can get Write Through the Word for only $9! This is over 50% off the normal price of $21!
Don’t let another day go by without the strength and reassurance that comes from journaling and praying over God’s Word!