From Ashley, contributing writer
I have always had a hard time finding TIME with Jesus, with being a momma and a wife, a homemaker and everything other hat I put on, as all of us women do. With clothes to wash, supper to get on the table, and little voices needing me, I can lose out on my quiet.So teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom~ Psalm 90:12
When I finally do get them to bed, clean house, and do what is needed for the next day, its all I can do someday’s to crawl to the bed. I run non-stop to nurture, love, devote, help, clean, keep, and give. That is just one day in the life of a mom, and its hard.
With children, the season of finding that sacred time with Him can be difficult to come by, and when I do get that time, I just want to cry out to Him because I am weary.
A storm hit our family a couple months back, and I was blind sided by the trials that came with it. I didn’t know what to do, and as my flesh tried to fight it, I finally threw my hands up to Him. I constantly have to remind myself “Ashley, you can do NOTHING without Him. He will fix and heal this problem. All you need to do is be still.” I’d be rich if I had a quarter of how many times I’ve had to stop what I was doing and tell myself that. Because, I am stubborn and my flesh likes to raise up and be first, before anything else.
The storm taught me a gold lesson- Nothing comes before Jesus. Nothing.
That trial demonstrated and uncovered something to me that I needed all along, really putting my time to use.
Not just when the babies go to bed, or when I get 5 minutes to myself. I’m talking about REALLY evaluating my time. Seeing what I could cut out and what I can do without.
Can I explain friends? I am talking about guarding our heart and our eyes with the things of the world and getting back to the basics with Jesus. Giving up that time on Facebook to grab that Bible. Getting off our phones to get quiet and pray. Turning off the TV to have a family devotional. Is it hard, OH yes. But I realized I DO have time to pray, get my priories right, and make Him number one. That time may come late at night or early in the morning, but there is time.
I’ve had to take a hard look at myself and my life in the past couple weeks. Sometimes our spiritual lives need cleaning, rearranging, just like our houses. We need to look in the deep, hard to reach places to see if we are spending our time like we should. If we are focusing on the journey with Jesus, instead of being distracted. Our hearts need to be filled with Him. As often as we can, above anything else.
When that trial came to our family, I realized just how far I had gotten off track with my walk with the Lord. It happens to everybody, and we can be forgiven. Instantly, because He loves us.
I fail, mess up, and struggle everyday, but I am here to uplift you, sweet sister, and ask this of you like I did myself, how is your spiritual house today? Does it need a deep clean? Do you need to evaluate your time? Do you need encouragement today? I am here to tell you that you are doing an amazing job being you and with all your hats you put on in your life. That your beautiful, and God loves you. Your time is precious, just like you.