Tonight I heard something that’s making me worry, big time. It’s a situation that’s been developing for a long time and after what I heard, I’m not sure what the Lord is doing. My natural instinct is to worry, fret, think of all sorts of bad scenarios in which I will be incredibly disappointed by the outcome of the situation. It’s something very personal and so I don’t want to talk about the details right now but as I’m nearing the end of day, I’m feeling very discouraged.
A couple of months back I read a devotional that said, in so many words, that worry has no place in the Christian life. The author claimed that if we’re anxious about something for any length of time, it shows that we are not trusting God. The point of the devotion was to say that we should basically “get our ducks in a row” and muster up better faith.
Is that really how it works in the life of a believer? Am I not allowed to worry at all? I remember putting down the devotional that evening feeling disappointed in myself, wondering what I could do to “fix” my worrying problem.
I come back to these thoughts tonight as I worry and dwell on something I have no control over. The post I was going to write is put on hold for the time being as I look to the Scriptures for insight on this topic of worrying.
The verses from Matthew 6 tell us not to worry. That we cannot add a single hour to our lives. That the Lord will give us what we need. All these things are true but somehow I can’t internalize them.
Psalm 37 begins with the words “Do not fret.” This passage of Scripture was written in the midst of a time when David had men after him who were bent on taking his life.
Then verse 7 says: “Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him; do not fret…”
The footnotes of my NASB Bible say that this verse can be read another way:
“Be still in the Lord and wait longingly for Him.”
Longingly? That’s me. Waiting? I’m there. Being still? Well, no…
In between verses one and seven are these words that give me hope:
“Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness. Delight yourself in the Lord; and He will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He will do it. He will bring forth your righteousness as the light and your judgment as the noonday.”
These verses don’t instantly solve my problem. In fact, they bring me right back around to where I was before I heard this discouraging news, to the truth that God really does know what I need and how and when to give it to me. Knowing that He wants me to continue to commit my way to Him, regardless of what the outward circumstances look like.
I’m hoping to fall asleep tonight with my focus on the Lord and not on my worries or cares. But sometimes that doesn’t just happen and I’m coming to the conclusion that this is okay.
Worry isn’t profitable for anyone. It isn’t something that should consume our days. But our faith and our trust in the Lord is worked in us by the Holy Spirit. And I wonder if sometimes times of worrying and fretting are allowed so that we can go to Him, crushed and discouraged, just as we are.
We don’t have to stay discouraged because God gives us the grace to wrestle through it, to commit our way to Him, to allow Him to act in such a way that we know it is He and not us that accomplishes the work. Even it it takes much longer than we’d like it to. Even if I have to open myself up to the fact that this may end differently than I thought it would but will still be God’s best for me.
If you’re going through something like this, I hope these words of Scripture are encouraging to you as well. And I’m wondering, do you think that worrying is sinful and that it shows you are lacking trust or faith in God?
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